Tuesday the 19th of November 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be Flow. So, like I am currently just kind of like starting to feel a little bit more positive in the creative, I guess the sort of like kind of like working element of my life. Something that I guess I've been
grappling with pretty much ever since I've kind of like fell into it after coming out from prison in 2020 like it's kind of like sort of like, you know, I describe it like Effectively, you know falling, you know falling from the air into the ocean and all of a sudden having to like scramble to effectively like
You know find a way to swim and to just effectively that holding water trying to stop yourself from drowning It's like, you know, just kind of trying to make sense of my working life, which isn't like effectively like, you know, a regular working life or when I say regular, I'm really more so talking about it's not effectively like, you know, you know, your typical working life where you go to one place and you effectively kind of like stay there for a duration of like a time in a given year.
Now for me, it's effectively kind of like running up and down from place to place hours changing sometimes mornings sometimes evenings and like you know even in the creative space like where like you know my creative sort of like work requires me to effectively kind of like be in different places, be different people, do different things
and stuff like that. It's not necessarily been overwhelming per se, although it hasn't been uneventful in that department, but it's definitely been something that I suppose I've been struggling to get to grips with ever since 2020. But it's one of those things where I'm now beginning to find my flow, so to speak, because I'm now being able to organize and be able to really keep a digital mental note of everything that I'm doing and you know effectively it's kind of
like now it feels like you know for the for the longest time it's felt like I've just been wrestling with these wolves like you know different things kind of like asking different you know kind of like different different demands making different demands on me you know kind of like and it's just I'm just at this point where I think to myself yeah like you know now it just feels like I'm almost kind of like got the reins and I'm almost kind of like controlling the direction of where I want to go when it comes to my creative and my creative and my working life.
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