Wednesday the 4th of September 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be absorption. Now when I really reflect about the way that I am and how I've been pretty much like since the beginning of my life or at least kind of like come into terms with who I am, I
must admit that kind of like when it comes to my identity because I've spent such a long time, for as long as I remember, because I've spent such a long time trying to figure out who I am, I've come to the conclusion, or at
least I've slowly come to the conclusion, that the reason why I've spent such a long time trying to come to terms with who I am is because I didn't know who I was, which kind of leads me to the conclusion that I behave and the way that I am around people, but then also the way I absorb a lot of like people's emotions, a lot of people's experiences, a lot of people's kind of like emotions, but then also a lot of people's identities, how I'm so easily swayed, how I kind of like fall easily victim to that peer
pressure. It's absolutely insane. It's like the minute somebody says something, or the minute somebody kind of like begins to talk about kind of like their experiences, I feel like I've become their experience. Like one of the things that has happened to me in recent history, because of the work that I have picked up having to go around picking up
on scrap metal, I have effectively embodied and I have absorbed the identity of a scrapper, somebody who effectively breaks down metal. So again, the heavy consumption of alcohol, swearing a lot more in languages, becoming a lot more abrasive in my language, applying the concept of the gas man theory, which is something that I'm not entirely certain that a scrapper is even aware of, but effectively kind of like being very bold, be very abrasive, kind of like not taking no for an answer
and assuming that yes is the answer, this is the way that I am. I talk to a footballer, I begin to adopt the identity of a footballer, I talk to a rap artist, I begin to adopt the identity of a rap artist,
I adopt, I begin to talk to somebody who has like the, I don't know, the identity of a very feminine and a very submissive woman, then I also would begin to adopt those characters and traits. I am putting this information out there to express and to paint a picture of my own personal life experiences,
the things that I've gone through. Because these aspects are going to be very important when it comes to the foundations and the characteristics of the music that I put out there. So yeah, that's all the ideas that I have for today. I hope to catch you guys tomorrow.
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