Wednesday the 21st of August 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be Across a Parallel Scenario. So like right now I'm just basically thinking about where I would be if I had effectively chosen a different career path, if that makes any sense at all. Like right now as you
speak I guess I could say that my career is not refined or it's not defined if that makes sense. I look across to my left, to my right, to my friends, acquaintances, to the people that
I've met and I look at everything that they do and to a certain degree all of them have got defined careers like they're either working for marketing firms, they're either accountants, Some of them I guess work for big companies to a certain degree. Some of them are effectively like working in coding. Some of them work within cyber security. Like all of them effectively have got the careers defined to a certain degree.
And then there's me, effectively juggling, like you know, kind of like laborers jobs, like small little jobs here and there, to effectively buy my time so that I can allow this thing, this music thing that I'm investing my time and energy into to effectively evolve to the point in which my career is effectively defined. I've often spoken about kind of like you know my career not effectively being as easily
crystallized, it's not as crystallized as somebody who has a career in let's say for example law or medicine. Like effectively I am creating my own job, I kid you not. I am creating, I am keeping myself busy, I am creating my own tasks, I am creating my own routines, I am creating the mannerisms and the modes within which I am going to get paid. Effectively I am creating my own job and I am creating my own career off scratch. Like you know this
is one of the reasons why for many instances and in many cases, like you know parents or people that you talk to about music can't quite really picture or can't quite understand a. what it is that you do b. why it is that you actually do it. I'm currently thinking about a parallel universe, I guess a place where maybe I wouldn't have pursued my career and I'm kind of like wondering you know exactly how content and how happy I would have been. It would have been nice you know to be able to turn around to people and say this is what
it is that I do and nobody ever bat an eyelid or question why it is that I do it. Nobody ever critiquing me or wondering why I'm doing what I'm doing or not. I don't know, it's funny because sometimes I do wonder if it would have been better that I effectively just didn't pursue a music career but I feel that a part of me feels at home in this kind of like journey. I feel at home because effectively I'm in a very weird or roundabout way, I'm almost like entrapped with hundreds if not thousands of people who share the same dream as me. All of these guys like you know have
probably complex egos, egos that need I guess serious work just like me and all of them want the exact same thing as I do and we're all competing for it and It's all about kind of like I don't know for some reason. I feel like I'm right at home I don't have to filter out who I am I am exactly who I am like I'm not you know I'm not effectively putting on a face to a certain degree and We are all kind of like in this pool effectively like expressing and showing just how ugly our egos and our characters are and and a part of me just basically feels glad that I didn't go anywhere else to try and define who I am in this career.
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