Wednesday the 18th of December 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be assimilation. Now, right, so, you know, life as of late, really and truthfully, like, how do I judge it? Like, again, I'm trying not to judge my life experiences, if anything, like I'm just trying to
observe them. And the difference is that I guess I'm noticing between the things that I'm experiencing now in comparison to the things that I experienced back then. Well what can I really talk about when it comes to that department of my observation
process? I actually don't know. I actually don't know. I tend to find that a lot of my observations nowadays seem to feel a little bit more neutral. Of course they're going to be coloured with a significant degree of bias but it's almost like, you know, back then I guess like I had to a certain extent a, I don't know, like an aspect to like my character and personality, you know, there was a bit of weight and there's a, you know, effectively like my identity didn't feel as hollow back then as it feels now. It definitely felt hollow back then to a certain
extent for reasons that I guess I won't go into in this reflection, but now is almost like You know now it's kind of like that hollowness is effectively something that feels a little bit more prominent in my life What do I mean when I say that what do I mean when I say that like I'm gonna have to rush my way through My explanation, but I feel like it's important for the context of this Um, you know kind of like reflection to be fully accomplished What it is that I'm trying to say is that in the beginning my life was very linear
What do I mean when I say that in the sense of like, you know, let's kind of I need to kind of pull out a couple of like mixing and mastering kind of like terminologies, but you have this thing called mono and stereo. Mono is a very kind of like linear, I guess I wouldn't call it like a sound, but it's like it's effectively is very linear. It's like very like it's very like straightforward and it's very narrow, whereas stereo field is like very wide. And the thing that I'm trying to say is that at the moment when it comes to my identity back then I had a more, I had a narrow identity whereas nowadays my identity is very wide so it doesn't just apply to just me.
I don't just see myself as myself, I see myself as the combination or kind of like that as the addition to the combination I guess that just basically you know equates to the entire human existence. And that's effectively the difference that I'm noticing in my observations is just one of those things where I'm beginning to effectively kind of like observe things differently, observe myself as a human being collectively with other human
beings kind of like having experiences rather than just recognize myself as you know the sole individual or the most important individual kind of like of the lot.
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