Ever since my performance at the Break Da Bar cypher I haven’t felt the same. It’s the realisation that as much as I can leave a good impression on some people’s ears, there are people who are leagues above me when it comes to certain aspects of this sport.
I learned about the downside of being surrounded by yes men, people who haven’t been privy to the sheer mountain levels of excellence that can be reached and therefore assume that I’m the very pinnacle. I’ve learned that the key to the results I seek will always be behind the things I don’t want to hear, and things I don’t want to do because they require me to push myself beyond my comfort zone.
I’ve learned that if I truly want to be considered amongst the greatest who have ever done it I cannot allow myself to remain comfortable for long periods of time, because there will always be somebody who’s after the same thing as me. Nowadays I can’t say anybody’s gifted and talented when it appears that we all share the same gift.
At the same time though I have to learn how to be happy with where I’m at. Comparison for any reason other than objective assessment is toxic poison that crushes the confidence of any person trying to become great at something.
I also need to remind myself that if there’s a certain level that I want to reach I can reach it, and if it’s a level that I really want I will always surprise myself with how quickly I will get there. I never started being brilliant at this, and so far I’m getting better, but with time and dedication I know I will become excellent, and that’s where I need to keep my mind constantly focused on. I’m learning how to be happy with where I’m at.
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