Okay cool, so Sunday the 9th of June 2024 and this one here I'm gonna call chaos and instability purely because well that's the way that I can basically describe my life at the moment my life is chaotic and unstable if I'm being honest like literally my kids are just
basically just running up and down the freaking house it's okay and I did not do in like literally that they are the least chaotic and least unstable part of my life right now so I'm not even
gonna throw any tantrums in that regard when it comes to them. It might just be a little bit annoying just kind of like talking about this like whilst these feet are just basically stomping like outside my office. But yeah like at the moment like I'm literally I've entered the period where everything is uncertain like I don't know when my bills are going to be paid, if my bills are going to be paid, if I'm still going to be living in this house
by the end of this month, next month, I really don't know how that's going to happen. Like literally my relationship with my work has kind of like deteriorated. I don't know how much of this I should be sharing, but it's just one of those things where like you know because of circumstances work is no longer paying me as much as it was paying me. And again this is just the way that things goes.
At the moment, because I don't know where money's coming from and I don't know how to get it, I'm in this position where it's like I don't know where to put my feet. It seems like there's no ground for me to put my feet on. And anywhere where I do put my feet,
it just feels like something's just gonna fall right through and I'm just gonna fall right through it. So, that's basically it. There's lots of opportunities that I can pursue. Not all of them are easy. None of them are easy, none of them are easy to be sincere and none of
them promise any ground of like certainty, stability or kind of like shelter from this chaos that I'm currently going through. It's like literally, it almost feels, but then at the same time it feels like, it doesn't feel like a bad omen, it feels like this is a dark period that I'm going through, a necessary dark period that I'm going through because something else is going to come out, something else is going to come up and something is going to come in its place and it's going to be an opportunity for me to be completely rid of some of the
things that I've had to deal with just basically because I've been stuck in this situation. Like again, just because I've been stable and just because my life hasn't been chaotic for like the past God knows however many months doesn't mean that it's been great. Like you know, it's like, you know, there is such a thing as negative stability and yeah like I'm just that's just basically my life so far.
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