Sunday the 24th of November 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be die another day. So it's coming up to quarter past 10 in the evening both my girls are asleep definitely getting used to a couple of changes baby Morocco and mother of baby Morocco
are elsewhere they're just basically sleeping elsewhere kind of like at the in-laws sort of like doing their own thing and I'm effectively adapting to new changes, whatever those new changes may be.
It's very difficult to predict what sort of life you're going to lead, especially when you have a newborn coming in. Effectively, your life begins to revolve around the needs and the demands of the child and the newborn, rather than your own needs, if that makes sense. I'm effectively learning how to adapt. The funny thing is that I literally felt like I was at mercy's
end today. I genuinely felt like today was going to be one of those days that proved to me that I need help. And the truth of the matter is that I do. I've never been a stranger to the fact that I need help, although to be fair I might be exaggerating a little bit. This has been, for a long while, this has been the sentiment that I've carried for a But you know, prior to, I guess, you know, after the kind of like period where I effectively used to live with this notion that effectively I didn't need any help or it felt bad to ask
for help. But you know, that was a period that was quite, you know, quite a while ago. I would say like, you know, I'm 30 now. This is something that I was kind of like, you know, battling with when I was like 22. But then, you know, by the time I got to 23, I kind of like, you know, fell down into this kind of like flow of humble, I guess, way of just kind of like a living,
if that makes sense. And, you know, I genuinely felt like today I was gonna be at mercy's end because, you know, I've been ill for the past couple of days and, you know, my demand effectively, like, you know, my life has gotten more demanding
and the strength that I normally use to kind of like meet that demand has kind of like, you know, diminished in size. And yet, like, you know, I just felt like, you know, that sort of like, you know, resurgence at some point later this afternoon and I absolutely you know caught up on
everything obliterated everything and made sure that you know my daughters went to bed with like full bellies and like you know smiles on their faces and stuff like that so yeah I live to die another day so to speak but yeah I definitely kind of like I'm thirsty for more success I'm thirsty for more kind of like you know if you know for more if that makes sense and hopefully I should be able to keep the train going and that energy going into next week
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