They say comparison is the killer of joy. This thought just came into my mind because either this week or last week I was scrolling through the gram to find a visual representation of that very saying.
Honestly sometimes I just wish I could accept and enjoy my music for what it is. I find it strange that I could listen to the exact same song but feel differently each time I listen to it. When I’m feeling proud and appreciative of myself and my efforts I really enjoy listening to my music. When I’m feeling doubtful or insecure I find myself tearing my work to pieces and comparing it to every other song that’s out there even if it’s not in the same genre.
In addition to all of this I find that if I never developed the habit of comparing my work to everything else that’s out there, I would only be left with the joy that comes from expressing myself. This sucks because often at times I wonder how I can improve from the work I’m conjuring if I don’t have a reference to pull from.
I mean sure they say the only person anyone should ever really compare themselves to is themselves…but greatness has always in my opinion been very addictive. Nobody whom I admired growing up became who they were without inspiration from external sources.
I guess it’s all a balancing act. I have to learn how to use comparison only when it benefits me, and learn to enjoy my art for what it is, rather than cursing it for what it isint, or hating it for what it will never be.
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