Wednesday, the 24th of July, 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be Fading Out. You know, it's amazing to think how a simple experience like lying down on the grass in a long big field can suddenly pour out all of the essences and all the ideas and intricacies that
I have tied to my own identity. So today, like, this was basically almost like an impromptu event that effectively took place completely out of my regular routine, where myself and my family, together with our two dogs, effectively went to a field, a completely empty field that is specifically designed for dogs to run around without having to worry about there being any
other people or any other animals. And it was the simplicity of it, the quietness of it, the open expanse, the sky that was just basically just there before me, and the fields that were just effectively kind of like there in the distance, that completely removed me from
all of the preconceived ideas and notions that I had about who I am and I effectively stopped caring about everything that was supposed to happen thereafter and everything that had happened before. It's like I was just completely there, absent from anybody that I needed to be or absent from anybody that I thought I needed to be. It was an experience that was so surreal and so kind of like unexpected almost that by the time I opened my eyes after laying there for 10 minutes not having to worry about a single thing, I completely forgot about who I was, I completely
forgot about who I was supposed to be or what I was supposed to do. The only thing that remained very poignant in that moment was just the connection that I had to the universe, or at least at the very bare minimum, the earth that laid bare before me, you know, the connection that I had with the soil on the ground as I placed my hand above it and touched and felt the grass with my own, you know, with my own hands. You know, the feeling of the sun beating against my skin, like, you know, the clear blue sky
and the land that was affected, completely barren of people, cars, cities, buildings, for lack of a better way of expressing it. I just, you know, couldn't even remember the fact that I was 30. I couldn't remember the fact that I was a father or a partner. I almost reconnected with all the emotions and sensations that I had when I was a child, completely void and completely empty of any notion or idea or ideology or responsibility. And I was just completely fooled with the present moment, completely fooled with the realization that all I really have, I guess, is now.
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