There’s this scenario that played out not too long ago in my recent history that I can’t seem to accept for whatever it was. My performance over this instagram live a couple of weeks ago was no more than something spontaneous, and maybe I should accept it as just that, but for some reason I had this weird feeling that it was going to lead to something more. Now I know I’ve probably written about this a hundred times before already, but see what I mean when I say the ego will often get in the way?
Look at it like this, although I’m a work in progress artist in my mind I am nothing less than spectacular. With that being said nobody should be underwhelmed or indifferent when they are in reception of my work, and yet for some reason a couple of weeks ago my work was not received in the way I had both hoped and expected.
It’s hard to point these things out In others when I’m going through it myself, but I still make an effort to express how easy it to deceive oneself into believing that one is more important and more renowned than what they actually are. Attention is a power that doesn’t come without responsibility, and when you try to separate those two things it becomes extremely easy to fall pray to the influence of your own ego.
You start to think you’re more important than what you actually are, neglect the responsibility that comes with the fact that people look up to you, and you slowly but surely lead yourself down a path of self destruction.
When it comes to my performance, despite not getting the reception that I wanted Im just happy that I found the courage to throw myself out there and perform. It would have been beautiful to be the winner amongst the bunch, my musical talent does have its limits, listeners do gravitate towards their own tastes, and not everybody will see me as big of a deal as I see myself everyday.
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