Tuesday the 27th of April and I wanted to talk about this particular moment I had yesterday when despite everything going completely to shambles in a sense of like despite me having a very horrible day
I found myself in a position where I was just scrolling through some of the analytics, some of the data that I have been collecting through the process of me posting all over the internet,
posting on Instagram, posting on Facebook, posting on YouTube, posting on my own website. And surprisingly, I found that like, you know, the hashtag process or the hashtag strategy that I've been implementing, whilst it hasn't been particularly great has
garnered some sort of results and I found that some of my posts have actually been ranking in some of these hashtags and It's a result. It's a very very tiny tiny result a very almost insignificant result, I guess but it's something that gave me just a little sliver of hope and you know when you're having a really bad day when everything is not going according to plan and you know when everything is going badly you know the world feels like you'll be a much better place without you being in it like you
know when you're having that bad of a day. Such a tiny piece of information or a tiny result, like, you know, it means a lot. It's just one of those things that just keep me going. You know, it makes me feel like everything that I've been doing is leading towards some sort of result, a great result. And it just happens to be that that result
at the moment is not, is a result that's further down the line. It's further down the journey. It's not something that I've come to grips yet. It's not something that I've accomplished yet, but I am in the process of accomplishing it.
And I guess being in the process is always better than not being in the process because that's when I truly don't have any hope at all. The world continues to expand. When I refer to the world, I mean the world that's relevant to me continues to expand,
my schedule gets busier and busier and things become, you know, it seems as though like more and more things are becoming out of my control and I'm beginning to realize just how much I will struggle to do this by myself if I continue to go in this way. But at the same time I'm still urging myself to go forward. I still feel urged or I still feel you know I feel jolted to go forward and I'm pretty I guess I'm pretty happy with that. I'm pretty I'm pretty satisfied with that. It's still painful. It's still you know the days the days that are hard are still very hard but at the very least I can look back with the gratitude that I haven't given myself I haven’t given up on myself just yet.
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