No matter how unsatisfied I might feel about my life, I will always be where my past self once hoped to be.
These words feel very powerful. I’m reflecting on them because I honestly believe that if I can practically apply them on a daily basis, I’ll be able to train myself to focus always on how far I’ve come as opposed to where I’m not able to go; where I’m failing to be, who I’m not able to become.
I’m reflecting on these words because In my line of work, it’s easy to develop an ego. The bigger the ego the easier I am to bruise, the harder it is to control my emotions when reality doesn’t offer an outcome that I want.
In my line of work, there will always be winners and losers, fish big and small, relevant and irrelevant, and I get a great sense of peace from opening myself up to the reality that I can always wind up being either one of those, and that’s okay.
I say this because I can’t help but feel that I’m living in a world that’s designing me to focus on what I don’t have. Thinking specifically about rap music when I’m on Instagram I’ll always find an artist with more followers, more likes, more views, more comments, and more overall social influence.
I’ll always find an artist I wish I could be, or an artist with a success I’d want to trade mine with because my success is ‘Not adequate enough’ in comparison to theirs.
When I change my line of focus however, I can see my past self in the distance, toiling away to obtain the skills and abilities I now effortlessly possess.
There once was a time when I had no songs to my name, just roughly sketched verses on my phone. They were amateur, and had barely any clarity or cadence in them. I couldn’t count bars or write songs from start to finish but now…all of that has changed, and I’m successful in all of those rights.
I have my own blog, and my own recording studio at home, but heck there used to be a time I couldn’t mix my own music to save my life. I couldn’t edit my own videos or create my own cover art…I’ve come a fair way, and I’m still going.
I have every reason to be grateful for what I have, and proud of the person I am becoming.
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