Right now it's a beautiful Saturday morning and I'm just here sitting in my office writing this reflection as the sun is shining through the window that's right behind me. I must admit that at the moment I'm in a complete state of disbelief, after everything that I went through yesterday I am genuinely shocked that I am in a place where I've actually overcome and at the same time been able to achieve so much.
I found myself shocked, confused even that I'm allowing myself to think that I'm in a place where I am completely happy with what I accomplished, and whatever happens tomorrow whether I accomplish the things that I have always wanted to achieve or whether I don’t, none of it will matter from the moment I’ve allowed myself to be invested in now.
Yesterday during my efforts to deal with a schedule riddled with so many tasks that I find myself drowning in it all, I honestly believed that I was at my wits end. I genuinely believed that I was at a point in which I wasn't going to lose because I chose to give up, I was going to lose because I was simply going to cave in from exhaustion.
I told myself that if I was going to be able to get by, just get by the things that I was meant to do today, I would consider that at the very least a win. With that being said though that didn't happen, and what actually happened is that I was able to supersede all the things that I thought I was going to accomplish. With that being said I am extremely grateful but also in complete and total disbelief.
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