Alright cool, so you know Monday the 27th of January 2025 and it's too painful man it's too painful. I've come to this point in you know my journey as a rap artist you know where it's far it becomes basically what I'm trying to say is that it's too painful it's more painful for me to quit you know the pain of giving up is far greater than the pain of carrying on and literally is so painful. Like you know I'm going to describe a little bit, I'm going to talk a little bit about
how painful it is. Like for the longest time, literally I don't even know how long for, I've been finding like you know recording these reflections an absolute chore. I don't even enjoy them anymore like you know, and I don't know if it's because of the repetitiveness But if I'm being you know, if I'm gonna really put my best bet on it It's just the fact that it's just clashing with all of the other demands of my life
And it just becomes a labor of love like I haven't even if I'm being honest I don't even think I've gotten the results that I've been looking for I mean it's definitely kind of like served a purpose and it's definitely completed one of the objectives that I initially kind of like set in the first place. But you know it's so bothersome and it's been so difficult for like the past, I want to say like you know for the past two months and yet just the thought of stopping, just the thought
of just letting it go is so painful that even on the days when I'm absolutely just drenched and I just don't even want to carry on anymore I'm like nah I just you know I just end up doing it I just end up doing it and yeah man like you know it's you know and I feel like I've kind of like it's almost like the you know it's almost like hitting supersonic speed but not quite you know it doesn't quite apply as an analogy but it's just like I think I've gone past that threshold
to the point where now I'm probably going to carry on with these reflections up until the day that I traverse into another realm.
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