Friday the 19th of July 2024 and the title of this reflection is going to be Learning to Let Go. Now to be sincere with you I'm not actually entirely certain what I mean when I say learning to let go however like I'm beginning to kind of like realize through many of the things that I've
been experiencing over the last two weeks that like you know I've had a lot of misconceptions about life, what it means to be alive, what it means to be in the present moment, what it means to navigate your way through life,
you know, what, you know, the whole usefulness of like thinking, understanding and all of these things. Like, honestly, I'm beginning to let go of my expectations. I think I've actually been able to find the groove that I wanted to kind of like navigate this sort of like reflection through. The thing is I'm learning to let go of my expectations. Like honestly the whole notion of kind of like you
know painting an idea of what you want out of life. It could be what you want out of a situation, what you want from a person, what you want like you know from your efforts, the results that you want, whether it is a job, a partner, a car, a you know a house, you know whether you want to live in a certain community where you're treated or you're respected or you're looked at in the way that you perceive your own self. All of these expectations are effectively butchering your ability to find happiness
and find tranquility and peace in the present moment. Reality is reality. Reality will give you what reality will give you and your ability to mould and navigate yourself along that reality without building too much of an expectation of how that outcome is supposed to turn out is effectively the key to peace, tranquility and ultimately happiness. I'm learning to let go of all of these things. I'm learning to let go of like you know, you know the way that people should perceive me, the way that
people should be understand, the way people should understand me, like how things should play out in a freaking day Sometimes and it's not just sometimes it's like most of the time things will play out how things will play out They play out and then you adapt they play out and then you adapt Eventually as you grow with time and experience you begin to learn and understand certain habits You begin to understand your environment a little bit more and therefore you can you know preempt certain situations
And you can you know kind of like prevent certain situations from happening You can get more of what you want and less of what you don't want like you know out of life. However, for the most part you are not the person that makes the decision of how things are going to plan out. There are so many things that are beyond your control, beyond my control. And you know I'm just basically learning to go with these expectations because as soon as you know funny enough like yesterday was
probably one of the happiest days that I've had. You know not just this year but probably last year, since last year and the year before that, and the year before that as well. And what was different? I have to ask myself what was different about yesterday? What was different about the day before? Like, you know, what was different about these days where I'm just effectively happy? What is it? I just no longer care. I no longer care for the way that the day is going to pan out. I no longer care about, you know, what people
are going to think of me. People will think of me what people will think. Like honestly, like situations will play out the way they play out. If things go well, they go well. And if they don't, well, they don't. Like honestly, like existence, consciousness, being conscious, like, you know, life in itself is extremely precious, but it's also very, it's, it's fleeting. It's here one minute, and then it's gone the next. Trying to just basically dance around all day long, you know, kind of like thinking and trying to find solutions and, you know, trying to mold and shape, like, you know,
certain scenarios or certain outcomes in a way that you kind of like wanted to is not just I wouldn't say it's a waste of time, but it is the equivalent definition of trying to put a square peg in a round hole. You will be able to get things that you want out of life. Sure, they will come like you will be able to do it. However, you know, for the most part, they won't turn out the way that you want it to. Like, yes, you can impose your own will into this universe, you can impose your will into this world, but there
is a lot that you can't control, and as a result, you shouldn't bother trying to control is a lot that you can't control, and as a result, you shouldn't bother trying to control it.
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