Monday the 16th of December 2024. Right now I'm just sat in my office, my hair's a mess. I think I really do need to get into the shower. My dryers, so I've got like these sets of dryers. They're currently packed full with kind of like the colors load of my freaking laundry.
My kids are playing in the freaking bedroom. They're just basically sitting on the freaking tablets and you know as I'm beginning to describe all of this stuff like you know I could just literally feel my mind making judgments or making kind of like you know kind of like taking positions into how things
are supposed to be and how things are not supposed to be I already feel guilty for the fact that my daughters are on the freaking tablets I feel guilty about the fact that you know I don't have like the greatest emotional availability or physical ability or mental ability but I guess the mental the mental aspect of it I'm throwing out there because I've got a habit of being dramatic but it is hard you know like at the moment I'm just saturated you know
I'm saying like I'm trying really hard not to kind of like talk about my life in a very structured way if that makes sense I'm also trying not to be too negative and to complain but I guess I'm also trying to remain neutral in the way that I express myself so in a way just kind of like being open and just rambling on as things come to my mind but there's a lot of like not reflection really I guess it's just a lot of like conclusions that I'm making from a lot of the observations that I've
made you know as of late and you know I feel like I'm gonna call the title of this reflection order and chaos because it's like um you know you know things look very different in comparison to how they look like six months ago when I was able to keep up with Absolutely everything my diary my reflections my routine my schedule my friendships my work, you know my career everything But as of late like I'm not gonna lie. I am all over the place like nothing makes sense And you know like times like this
I guess like I can only Effectively record what I can observe and what I can experience and not really put a lot of great deal of judgment behind it.
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