Saturday the 26th of October 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be reflection, scratch that, it's going to be perception control. So there was a text message that I sent out and it got me
thinking about how that text message was going to be perceived. The reason why I was thinking about that is because there was a time where I was part of a group chat and I introduced myself. I did a long introduction.
I was effectively just being myself. I chose to send a voice note instead of just basically doing what everybody else done which was they just effectively just put their name, they just said who they were and they just effectively introduced themselves. And I think I got pulled up on it by one of my friends. They said look, like all you needed to do was just effectively a anyway, given the nature that I have so many different characters and personalities, although
that is a little bit loaded. I have more than one character and one personality for the function of whomsoever it is that I'm effectively engaging with. I, effectively what it is that I'm trying to say is that I, even if I had any control over how I was perceived. I am a little bit sort of like at peace with myself and I'm a little bit I relinquish any effort to try and influence you know how people perceive me on the pure basis that it's very difficult for me to effectively juggle the characters and the personalities that I have for whatever
purpose for whatever reason that I have them. The truth of the matter is, if I can, you know, for a second just basically gather my thoughts and return to like the focal point of this reflection, I, the thing is is that I engage with so many people. I have had to engage with people of an upper class, I've had to engage with people of a lower class, I've had to engage with people of different cultures, different backgrounds, and with each one of these type of people, I've had to effectively bend,
I've had to change my mannerisms, how I talk, how I move, not necessarily how I dress, but it has effectively created this almost bilingual or bicultural kind of definition to who I am. Really and truthfully, I'm a nerd at heart.
I definitely have a character that is effectively sort of like a fundamental or almost like a foundational to who I am, the nature to who I am. But at the same time there's also like a part of me I suppose that is also quite urban, that is also not effectively street but effectively I can be the voice for the people below as well as I can be a voice for the people above. But effectively, I think all I'm trying to say is that, look, given the nature that I have so many different shades, I have different layers and different kind
of like degrees to who I am, it's already difficult for people, you know, to kind of like influence people to have a consistent perception of who I am, because that perception of me is always going to change. I liken it to the idea of almost being like a cylinder. If you sort of like shine a light on a cylinder I suppose you will you know you kinda like have to go around the whole cylinder and what you will see and effectively I'm just trying to make this analogy out of thin air
but um... you know there's a different shade on each kinda like corner on each degree of this cylinder and um... you know kinda like when the sun is shining on it from the east it's a different shade and when it's shining on it from the West, it's a different shade also. So effectively, kind of like whilst the shine,
I'm just effectively trying to say that there's no point in me just trying to control, how people perceive me, because one day I am, nerdy, classy, I've got a very like, I'm extremely well-spoken, or at least I try to be extremely well-spoken.
And, the other day I could be dropping all of my mannerisms and I could be kind of like talking urban slang. It's just what it is.
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