Sunday the 29th of September 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be self-belief. So yeah so I don't know how long for now and I think they're kind of I need to come up with like a term to basically coin the phrase because even though it wasn't a long time ago or
it hasn't been for a long time it's been for a considerable length of time so this could be like I don't know anywhere ranging from like seven days to like a month, three months, I'm not sure because I just basically don't
keep record of like how my moods change, how my feelings change and stuff like that. So basically what I'm trying to say is that like, you know, for a while now, I guess I could say like it just hasn't been easy for me to just basically believe in the outcome and believe in the result because it's been so tedious and it's been so hard and there are so many challenges that are coming up that like you know I don't want to say you know I don't think that the correct term is like you know I don't feel that the
correct term is that I can't see the end in sight but it's almost like you know it's like I'm not it doesn't feel like I'm moving anywhere if that makes any sense at all and yeah I'm putting in so much freaking work so it's kind of like difficult to kind of like have that self-belief if that makes any sense at all but at the same time with all of that being said I feel like this morning, which is probably the reason why I'm even recording this reflection, I've kind of been able to get some of that confidence
back and some of that self-belief back because I realised that I am getting somewhere. It just basically doesn't look like it because at the moment nothing, it doesn't seem like anything is moving. It's almost like what I've once been told before, just because you've planted a seed and you don't see the tree growing doesn't mean that nothing is basically happening. You might be looking at it from the ground level up but the seed is still growing its roots and that's exactly what I'm doing. Even though I'm not putting a great deal of music out, I'm just basically
putting my fingers in different pies. I'm starting to set myself up in different departments. Departments that I know I'm going to have to employ at some point in my future. So yeah, I'm learning how to believe in myself and realizing that I'm still making progress even though it might not seem like it.
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