Something’s Better Than Nothing

It’s been near enough around 19 weeks since I published my first post on Diary of a Rap Dragon since my yearly long departure in 2022. I’m highlighting this detail because I’ve spent a significant chunk of this morning looking at my most recent posts, and almost getting discouraged because I’m observing my engagement numbers decreasing week by week.

I’m highlighting this detail because I’m curious to challenge the way I’m currently feeling, despite the fact that I have come this far when even further back from 19 weeks ago, I wasn’t even able to keep this up for eight weeks straight. 

With that being said, I’m challenging the way I’m feeling by telling myself that what I’m doing now is better than what I wasn’t doing yesterday: something’s better than nothing. 

It’s challenging to feel accomplished in the early stages, the day by days where the numbers feel low because they don’t come close to the thousand’s of views other creators seem to gain with ease on their posts and reels etc. 

But I tell myself that before 19 weeks ago I wasn’t even posting anything. There was nothing I was doing to show that I was remotely interested in becoming a rap artist. Why should I feel discouraged when I’ve been proving to myself that I can keep this up for 19 weeks? How am I going to feel when I’ve done this for 19 years?

Okay so my latest posts have only reached about 23 or so people on a daily basis: my work has been seen by 23 pairs of eyes. It might seem small now, but if I’m being honest, given the fact there was a time where that number was consistently at 0 for years, I choose to remain grateful for how far I’ve come.