Tuesday the 21st of May 2024. I'm off grid at the moment. Literally I'm out with the family somewhere like near Cambridge. Just out on a holiday I guess. Although it's very difficult for me to admit and to confess that I'm still in work mode. Like the only thing that I'm thinking
about is just literally like whatever it is that I need to do next. Like you know I'm looking outside and there's nothing but trees around me. It literally feels like I'm out in the forest and it's a nice feeling but all that I can think about are the reflections that I need to do because
yesterday I did, like you know, because I didn't do my reflections yesterday it means I need, I have double the amount of work that I need to do and I just want to get this out out of the way before I do anything else if I'm being honest yeah so I'm not entirely certain what it is that I'm gonna talk about really normally I've got something that pops to mind and maybe there can be some sort of there could be some sort of like direction in which I'm taking these reflections but I
guess I don't know I don't know like like I said you know like I said yesterday, things are getting a little bit weird, it seems as though I'm having to juggle so many things, so so many things. And it's putting me in a position, in a very strange position where I can't, it feels like time is not on my hands, it feels like so much is out of my control. And maybe I might talk a little bit about that. I might talk a little bit about control. Because here's one of the things that I believe strongly, really, if I'm being honest.
You know, they say, like, you know, you should never really pay too much attention to the things that you cannot control. Like, you know, don't, you know, don't stress over the things that can't be controlled. But the thing about that really is that, you know, how do you know what it is that you can and what it is that you can't control? Sometimes it's obvious, sometimes it's there right in your face, like you know that there are certain things that you can't control and
sometimes it's not so obvious. So you might be sitting there like, oh well you know I can't control this, when in reality you actually can. There is something that you can do. It might be a little bit tricky, it might be a little bit hard, but it's something that you can do about it. And being wired the way that I'm wired, unfortunately I can't just simply accept. I always have to, you know, even if something is ridiculous as the weather, if there's nothing I can do about that, I will always look for a way around
because unfortunately I don't believe that I'm at this at a stage in my life where I can simply accept no for an answer or nothing for an answer I always have to come up with answers and so with that being said like it's always interesting to see and you know you know I can't simply you know kind of like accept the things that I can't control I do always have to find a way around and I do always have to like you know I have to find to understand the exact things that we can and can't control
that's the real kicker, that's the real trick in this thing that we call life because far too easily we accept defeat and this is the reason why many of us just continue to suffer horribly.
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