One thing that I think I'm never going to do is hold on to the idea that I am in anyway shape or form a shareholder of the truth. At the end of the day what I will most likely be able to say is that I have an account of some sort, that allows me to share a unique experience that provides some sort of perspective of what life is, and what it means to be alive.
Over the course of my years I have come to the conclusion that it's unsafe to not have a a perspective just as it is equally unsafe to have a perspective that is perhaps too controversial for our current ears to behold. What I will say is that eventually you will need to make up your own mind about all of the things that concern our existence and what it means to have a pulse.
What I have found growing up in my life is that there is this sort of competition, this sort of battle, this sort of contest for who will claim their rights over my identity. Now I am not entirely certain if I can categorise myself as a wallflower or some sort, at the same time however, I have felt that my curiosity has influenced me to look at things from a perspective that places me beyond this idea that I am somewhat conscious, or that I am some sort of person.
What I mean when I say that is I have often looked at my life from the perspective of an observer that doesn't exist at all, and an observer that is just conscious of the things that are happening around it as opposed to myself being some sort of character in a storyline.
And some of the things that I have been able to find despite the fact that I have been biased in my findings, is that somebody is always out there to compete with another for their right over your identity, and that is the reason why no matter how much you try to be yourself, there is always going to be somebody who somewhat doesn't feel that you should be who you are.
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