Now this is something I'm going to refer to as the dark art of success. The reason why I refer to this as the dark art of success is because sometimes running towards something that you really want isn't necessarily something that you're running towards because you really want it.
Maybe there's something that is chasing you and there's something about your present reality that is so horrific that all of a sudden the very thing that you can see shining in the
distance becomes very appealing. When it comes to today, I cannot help but describe how lethargic I felt, how defeated I felt, how engulfed I felt by the mundane and remedial practice of just my daily life. I have always communicated to the people that have been closest to me, that there is something about the way that we live modern life in the West that simply doesn't cut it. This isn't necessarily to say that there is more to be lived and there are more experiences to be had, it's just that there is something about, you know, the, I guess I would refer it to the American dream, although I'm living out here in England.
There is something about modern life that just doesn't particularly make sense. Going to work for the amount of hours that you do, coming back home with the little amount of pay that you do, and having very little time for self-expression and self-actualization is something
that never made sense to me, even from the point in which I was living as a child, watching my parents trying to take care of me and my brother, and trying to live their own ordinary lives. The reason why I call this the dark art of success is because sometimes I tend to find that I am using the horrific circumstances in which I'm living in as a motivating factor
for why I want to pursue a better life. And sometimes that actually adds some serious rocket fuel to my motivation or at least the discipline that I implement in order to get things done and it's not necessarily very healthy. Earlier on I remember saying that I referred to my experiences as being horrific and maybe I'm being a little dramatic. What I'm actually trying to say is that there is something that is quite horrific
about the idea that this is one of the best ways to live when in actuality it isn't. Having a paycheck that barely gets you through the month and having worked so long and so hard for this paycheck is something that doesn't make sense considering the fact that in my life I feel completely unfulfilled. So with that being said I would like to talk about this a little bit more in the future but for now this is it for me.
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