I will never really be sure how accurate this following point of view will be, but when I compare myself to my peers is sometimes seems as though I am more likely to experience the extreme highs and extreme lows of many given situations.
Now this isn't because I am in anyway different or more special than my peers, but it may be more so have something to do with the situations that I willingly push myself into. I am very curious about the atypical things in that life would offer if only I allow myself to be open to those experiences.
I wouldn’t say the extreme lows are a fun ride, but it creates the most useful contrast that allows me to draw joy and art from the extreme highs that people often overlook.
I guess this is one of the few answers I can give to people that often ask me why I like to make a lot of sad music. I make a lot of sad music because there's a lot of sadness in the world, and there's a lot of sadness in me.
For better or worse for some reason there's a lot of sadness that I struggle to process, but for some reason in order for me to experience the happiness that comes from that sadness I have to be able to go through it.
As I've mentioned a few times before, this isn't an experience that I go out there looking for, but if it is an experience that I have to face, I do my best to extract the most amount of meaning and purpose from it.
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