Just when I think I’ve got this journey figured out I’m hit with a situation that leaves me in complete uncertainty. I’m trying to learn how to push through these moments because no matter how far up the ladder I seem to get, I continue to encounter the fear that one day I’ll fall through the clouds I’ve fought so hard to reach.
Just when I thought I’ve learned how to take a loss, a mountain of them come tumbling over my head one after the other and I’m hit with something that totally blindsides me. To put this into context I thought I had everything figured out: I was gonna get a flexible job working from home, and from that I would make enough to support my family and fund my music career.
The truest enemy in my journey has never been lack of money, but lack of time; too many commitments and responsibilities that have constantly left me torn between the decision to be the person I’ve dreamed to be, and the person I have to be.
Things didn’t go according to plan. The job I thought I was going to get didn’t fall through and now it feels like I’m stuck on ground zero.
The question I’m asking myself here is why is this happening for me? What am I missing from my written formula? Is this some sort of test to challenge the extremity within which I want to succeed in this part of my life?
I don’t really aim to get too clichè but I can’t help but think this is all indeed some sort of test. A situation that has somehow popped up that challenged my pre conceived notions of how easy this was all going to be, and maybe an opportunity to push against what I once thought was impossible.
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