Monday the 20th of May 2024. I'm recording this one a little late because I've had quite the series of events take place today and I feel as though I've been reminded that the world is a very chaotic and busy place. It will always continue to go around, it will always continue to
spin both metaphorically and physically speaking and there simply is no taming the storm like this angry storm that we have created for ourselves if I'm being sincere I feel like humanity from the perspective in which I'm observing it
because you know I don't want to get carried away and really speak for humanity as a whole because that would be I think that would be rather naive and maybe it will be a little bit I would be exaggerating a little bit it will be quite naive and almost uneducated for a lack of a better way of putting it you know if I basically applied this notion or if I applied my observation to the whole of humanity but I do feel like humanity from the perspective in which I'm observing it has become incredibly and you know ferociously restless in a very
unstable way like you know I'm not I'm not entirely certain I know how to describe it in an accurate fashion but I just feel like humanity is definitely heading towards a very unfavorable place. And I'm not entirely certain that we're quite aware of it if I'm being honest. I just feel I'm in a position where I am confident that everybody that I am communicating with. Outside of the social space, the meetings and greetings, the highs and highs, everybody's out there
for something that I have, you know, despite the very little that I have at the moment. And I've spoken a lot about, you know, financial difficulties, but right now, like, you know, I'm definitely entering a very, very dark period when it comes to my finances, and I'm not entirely certain how I'm going to be able to feed my family and
You know I am definitely I consider myself a person Willing enough to Work the hours necessary in order to make sure that I can put food on the table and keep a roof above my family's head But it seems as though like you know there's you know for every ounce or every pound that's you know within me that's willing to work there's about 300,000 ounces of you know of 300,000 pounds you know within thousands of other people who are just willing to take money away from me. That's the darkness that I'm currently
observing. You know I just want to work. I just want to put food on my family's table and every other person that I look at wants to take money away from me. Whether they want to do it in a very sneaky fashion, whether they want to sell me something, whether they just want to be up front with it, somebody's always out there for my money. And you know one of the songs that I've been working with although you guys might not be able to hear this song on this platform like you
know it's not a song that will be released on this platform one of these songs that I've made is like literally about you know learning how to be human in a world that's just after that just is just incredibly animalistic. I'm at a point where I'm just searching, I'm searching for hope, I'm searching for hope and I'm reflecting over the hope that I haven't had from somebody who really should have been there, who really should have been there to hold the fort, for know for a lack of a better way of putting it but you know I've still got air in my lungs
I've you know still woken from my temporary my temporary grave which is like what I like to call my bed but you know if I've been able to get out from that and I've still got air in my lungs it means I can still do something about it there is something about this chaotic world that I can't control and that's what I'm going to get busy doing.
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