At the end of the day I'm just trying to do my thing. There's never really a day where I don't find myself being challenged by stuff that I didn't really plan for. Really and truly when it comes down to it, if it wasn't for the risk of the potential outcomes that I could be facing, I wouldn't really be trying to become the person that I'm trying to become day by day.
Just like anybody that was born into this existence, really and truthfully my only aim and my only instinct I would guess, would be to go outside and explore the world: really find out who I am and who I'm supposed to be.
To be fair this isn’t an instinct that I ignore. I understand that deep down this is amongst the biggest desires that I want to exhaust before I leave this planet, but there are things that are lying in its way and I guess there are things that make it difficult for such a wish to be accomplished.
With that being said, I find it really difficult to sit still and allow the weight from the pressure that rests upon my shoulders to crumble me without any effort to push back.
I can wholeheartedly see why many other people who opt in for this option, but I simply believe that there is so much more to be gained from the mere experience of being alive, and quite frankly that shouldn't be sacrificed for anything tangible or on tangible that this materialistic world seems to offer.
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