Friday the 6th of September 2024 and the title of today's reflection is going to be willing to do so. So like it's coming up to 8 p.m. and I'm tired as hell. I've done it doesn't feel like I've done a lot of work I don't really feel massively accomplished. However what it is that I'm
basically thinking about how overwhelming my work is really and truthfully like on the I feel like the aspect of my life that makes my work so overwhelming is that I
have so many avenues that I have to pay attention to as much as this is by design for some reason I cannot seem to escape the kind of like setting in which I have to pay attention to like so many different avenues but if there's anything that I'm reflecting over specifically really and truthfully is like um like you know I guess the state of mind or the mentality or if anything the mindset that I've been kind of like working with for the past I would say maybe six years if I'm being
accurate and you know it's effectively the state of mind or is the mindset that effectively the motto or the mantra is is like you know doing you know showing everybody that you're willing to do so so that everybody else will follow on in suit so the thing that's effectively like you know if I take an example like example, like my music career, specifically this one, what's overwhelming about this is that I have to do so much of so many different things. So I have to be my own mixing and
mastering engineer, I have to be my own videographer, I have to be my own cover art designer, I have to be willing to do that just so that I can kind of like prove to somebody and prove to whomever wants to work is thinking about working with me in the future that I've got what it takes and that I'm worth working for. It's funny to say like you know I find it interesting to believe you know to find that in 2024 I don't just have to convince somebody that I'm able to rap and I'm able to put good music together, but I'm also having to prove that I'll, you know,
that I will be able to pay them through my business, which is absolutely interesting. And it's interesting because, you know, the more I think about it, the more I begin to realize, I'm not sure really. Like when I started kind of like taking my music ultra seriously and this goes back in 2018 I've adopted that
mantra I'm constantly showing people that I'm willing to do it you know not necessarily on my own but it's I'm showing people I'm trying to effectively you know get people to believe in my brand and how do I do that by showing that my brand works that my brand functions that it's able to kind of like you know make certain things happen despite the fact that I don't have a team at the moment effectively I'm doing this you know when it comes to kind of like you know this brand in
particular I'm doing everything entirely on my own and you know I have to show everybody to a certain extent that it works you know that I'm doing well which is interesting because in order for a brand to do well you need a team so there's a kind of like ironic paradox that's happening there. But yeah, like you know before I take myself to any producer, any mixing or mastering engineer, any manager that effectively has to work with me to a certain extent, I have to effectively
show that my brand is doing pretty well. Something that ironically wouldn't be possible unless you had a team of people that was effectively kind of like working in your corner to make sure that everything was actually working well. But yeah, that's all I wanted to say. Until next time.
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